Well we're gonna give it a go again. I have about zero motivation, twenty five more pounds since the last time i started the fitblog thing and no residual fitness left over from being in shape in the past this time.
The last few months have been some of the most painful of my entire life and it shows in the way i look. I slammed on 20 pounds in one month and an additional 5 just for good measure over the following few months. I think because i couldn't express the pain or just do myself in i expressed it by gaining an incredible amount of weight in a short period. I didn't exactly do it on purpose. I was somewhat aware of what was happening at the time but i was incapable of doing anything to stop it. Anyway, i don't pretend to understand it at all. I guess it was the only way i knew to deal with the pain. Some long ago learned thing no doubt.
So on to today. Somehow i managed to drag my ass into the basement and get on my dusty treadmill. G*d only knows how. Today is actually day 2 but i wasn't sure there was going to be a day 2 so i didn't blog day 1. I'm not sure there's going to be a day 3 so i'll probably keep this pretty quiet for the time being. So here goes... wish me luck. :P
Oh and why 37lbs? 'Cause that will put me right where i was exactly 2 years ago to the day. A weight i was very happy at and would quite happily live with for the rest of my life. Also it's about the lightest i've been since high school except for dipping a tad below that during the cancer treatment. Anything less than that would just be gravy. :)
Today is actually day 2 but i wasn't sure there was going to be a day 2 so i didn't blog day 1. I'm not sure there's going to be a day 3 so i'll probably keep this pretty quiet for the time being. So here goes... wish me luck. :P
